bittersweet.

no chem spa = ended at 11.40! i had wanted to go home to do some minor stuff, but felt too lazy too finally.

today's the last day of orientation.
bitter sweet.
my og's finally come together.
like really finally, so fast i didn't catch the intermediate stage even.
just poof, friends.

i would have loved to say that this orientation ended with a bang, but personally, it didn't.
i know some of my ogms are not too happy too.
o-nite was.. ugh.
it's not just sour grapes, really, we think it's biased.
it was sad, and really made us damn pissed. not just a few, but all the ogls. that must mean something right?
okay not that that few thousand points would actually make us win but really, at least be fair?

the performances were pathetic.
the av was terrible and pathetically horrendous.
ugh i cannot say more.
this is always happening.

but good job xaedon esp for talent time!
i guess one of the reasons we felt so so disappointed is cause we had our hopes raised too high in the first place.
to expect so much but not get it.. ahh.
i remember last year when zandor didn't win, i didn't feel as disappointed as i do now.
another reason is the built up so irritation at the o nite thing. like just the whole thing.
and a band that was really loud!
oh well.

midway through o nite when the ogls were woofing, yug called us together and reminded us that it's not our orientation, it's not about winning, it's about enjoying time together with ogms, and that they enjoy themselves.
i thought reluctantly, so true.

and then.
after o nite when i went for supper i found out that the ogms were unhappy too.
it's not only the ogls who are concerned with winning, it concerns ogms too.
f commented that the points system was so effed up.
first time i heard her say that word.
but then again i knew her for only 7 days.
like half days only.
oh by the way she agreed to be my girlfriend, but didn't want to kiss me.
so cute.

okay shall stop whining about o nite.
i was thinking if this is a rant or complain session or something, but i guess i just want to highlight that it's not that cause xaedon didn't win that im complaining.
i could say the same for x.on.
i think xeyla and xeia got awarded the most points today, excluding performances and photos and stuff.
just cheering,
which actually happened quite often.

wait i said i'll stop.

i loved orientation so far, i really am quite loving my og a lot, and will super miss them much.

promise to crash next year's one. haha.
this bittersweet feeling, ahh.
no more extreme havoc-ish fun, so much tiredness that once i fall onto the bed i sleep, no more cheering, no more leading, no more teasing and helping them bond........

sad sad sadddd.
argh sad.