shiz

eh orientation is so for looking for eye candy is it.
i have names alrs leh!
you hear of the names first, before you see them.
or you see them, then notice them, then somehow you'll get the name.

out of my head, i can name 5+ guys and only 3 girls.
but then it's only within either xaedon/ my og/ climbers.

ahahaaa we were at the climbing booth, then i was telling my ogm "eh mc! mc!"
then he said, "huh, mc where?"
oh poof she was right there. hahaha i said, "eh intro la!"
aiyah shyyyyyyyyyyyy.
right. right.

eh eh eh i am disgusted with/by myself.
someone correct my english.
the hardened skin on my hands right, i always peel them so that my hands become rough shit.
i mean it's so fun! and i actually like it.. but apparently it's damn sick and i don't want to do it anymore.

on another note, during og performance this guy was trying to hula hoop.
me, being the bitch that i am, said, "hey great job! that's one, oh that's two. great you're improving!"
i mean that guy is a joker type la so. you know.

then his friend asked me, "kristal do you always speak like this?"
pause. "oh..... you mean sarcastically?"
"yeah"
"uh..... ya.. uhhhhhhhhhhh."

honestly right! i kinda cannot help it?
i think if i were my friend i will not be able to stand myself?!
eh shit i have mentioned this before, this is so bad!
this is why no one takes me seriously.
and i can't actually blame them.

ehhh note, i know i use the words "i love you" quite loosely.
but. i do mean it. to who i say it to.

back to sucky sarcasm. [note alliteration!]
i don't think i will ever stop, because i don't actually want to change myself. i mean i want to be a nicer person and all, but if i'm not sarcastic i will not have fun!
i'm so sorry but it's kind of me.
when abc says, "oh you're being sarcastic as usual" it kind of does sting, but i don't blame her cause it's so true.
she says it's just me, a trait.
she's my friend, like wow. how to stand it.
ugh no seriously?! am quite annoyed with myself. like WHY am i this way?
i was not like this before okay.
i mean to this extent.
and i definitely wasn't really influenced by people cause i don't know a lot of sarcastic bitches. like those to the point of irritating and dislike at first sight kind of thing.

i am those type of people who will make people have a bad impression on first meeting, sometimes. when i do something mad or.. i don't know. some things.
or make people scared.
i have That Face, or so i'm told.

thank goodness it doesn't happen all the time.
i mean, my ogms still talk to me!
like, ahem, one or two. ahem.

i guess i should learn to fade into the background and be silent.
make no friends, make no enemies.
live no life.