if we had a wall and a gym, you'd beat them flat

[i just realized i know a person named I-hsuan and one named U-shiuan! what's with one letter-single syllable and then many letters-single syllable. thought i needed to announce it.]

this post contains quite a few topics, my thoughts were just jumping about.
different topics highlighted in different colours, not that i want to be a colourful idiot or something.

it was a dark and stormy night, the winds were blowing heavily, and waves were crashing on shores of the Singapore Antarctica.
elsewhere, in The Joyful Country, people were sailing happily.
but it's okay Singapore, we Joyful people know that with your intense enthusiasm, and IF the weather was on your side, and IF you had sails as good as us, you would beat us. flat.
yeah.

hello i know i sound damn bitter, but hey, i'm sorry you sounded sour first.

//edit (didn't really mean to let anyone read the previous post.. but well)

i cut short the post i made regarding the title, cause - why be bothered?
's time to be happy yo!

hahaahaa congrats to chris-the-not-fail!
fastest imba sh-t was so so sweet! jo said that chris was sooooo sweet too hahaa.

cannot see how i'll illustrate this without paint.


















somewhere between the third round to fourth round, chris slipped for his second route, and he tapped the thingy later than the first guy.
but as he was coming down, he was like "sorry guys!" and did the apologetic salute thingy.
that was so sweet! like he knows he were counting on him and stuff and like he was going up there for us!
hahaha worked out in the end, the screams erupted when chris pwned was just, pwn. haha.

great job babes and babettes! philip says to pwn difficulty! hahahaha!

SR's speed is great, whoa. and bernice's and eugenia's speed was (y) too!

hhahaaha@ chris's reaction when philip said how hard the second placed speed guy trained for this category alone. forgot what it was alrs.

well philip said not to underestimate myself, cause i actually didn't tell him what my aims were. kind of obvious i wasn't aiming for anything high....
i shouldn't, haha and i won't.
it has been fun, but no where near the fun we had at boulder active inter. hahaha that was real fun. joke hahahaha joke.

rockmasters are on the second last week of june holidays, which means even if we don't train we cannot participate cause we have exams the next week.
exam, singular. chemistry mcq on friday of the holidays=.=
so immediately after pumpfest we stop altogether, sighs.
i'll miss this so so much. i really cannot think of life without regular trainings on wednesdays and fridays and saturdays, dinner after with them, ahhhhhhhhhh. ):

i didn't have much expectations for mcts, -- no, i don't think i set any goals at all. yet i was so disappointed with my.. not results. with what i got back. i kind of think results had at least a little bit of positive connotation, like harvest.
imagine, no expectations, yet disappointed. what would happen if i actually planned to achieve something?
i mean, i know deep deep down i wanted not to do so badly, like my heart knew the grades i wanted, but not my mind.

oh okay, actually, will i ever be contented with anything but an A?
i am extre- i am impossible to satisfy, to content.
this irritates me to no end.
subjects i don't do well at, chinese for example. say, getting a B will already be wonderful, i mean, my standards, really? a B? yeah.
but i know, even if i got something that rewards more than i deserve, i will not be contented.
i want the best.
who doesn't?

O levels. i should be overjoyed at my results, but. no.. i had to let a minuscule thing affect me, till this day.
have never gotten over it. i don't want to be like that, but i cannot help it.
i'll probably scoop my guts out with a 87654567 edged knife on results day cause i didn't get all As =.=

anyways, my point is, i am going to set a target for jcts.
it's not aiming for the top, i just want to not fail all my subjects.
if i get this, hahaha not like i'll be happy. but it's a point.
chem - E (yes ikr, wth?)
math- C
econs physics GP - D (max one E, for either)
and if i cannot achieve this minimum, i will cut my hair to shoulder length.
hahahhahaah i know, not really a motivation to study hard?
cutting it to shoulder length will take.. a year half to grow back.
aiyoh i think i'll regret this.
but i will not go back on this stupid idea, treat it as a punishment to myself.

hmm if i don't get all As for A levels, i'll shave my head!
no kidding, i already don't have all As =.=

why am i so anal about academia, i don't know.
innate competitiveness perhaps.
i really don't like it, have tried to suppress it but it just squirms its way out, really, it's embarrassing.

(:
difficulty up next week, this one hahaha really i am not aiming for the "best" cause in academics, many people can get As. in this case, only one.
can't wait to watch the girls do it, and the guys too!
not undermining myself, hello, but i know where i stand.
am excited for it!
cause i just recently fell in love (almost, near there) with high wall again!