bitchaye

i think i may sometimes place my trust in the wrong people, not many examples i can think of, but i can't forget one in particular.
note, this is gonna be bitchy.

i never fancied A a lot, and i quite admired B, so when A told me that B had tried to anonymously flame her, i didn't believe A, cause i thought B wouldn't stoop so low.
i asked B about it, and she denied it. hmm well i believed.
but it's an IP address, it's enough proof itself.
all was fine and well, i endured B's pms-y coldness toward me for months on the end, o-kay. i was never likable to begin with, maybe associating yourself with me would bring you down, eh, B?
and then there was this time where B would relentlessly tease me about this certain boy.
i told B not to give him my number, and she agreed.
i thought she wouldn't, i really thought so.
but oh, well, she did still. and ugh, she talked about false issues to others.
seriously, i don't know why i still liked her then.
for superficial reasons, maybe? cause she was nice, pretty, popular? and i was lonely?
i'm not really one to fight back. i can be extremely bitchy when i'm in the mood, esp where i can hide myself (i.e, on the Internet), but when facing people, i just smile sweetly and walk away.
coward.
well hello B, you're a bitch and i have never forgotten this issue, you betrayed my trust for pure entertainment's sake and it was not funny at all for me.
yes, it not a very serious issue on trust, but it's not that minor either, given that no one blatantly abuses trust like that.
i know we're awkward friends now, there's nothing for me to forgive, and i really do still like you. you're a sweet nice girl.
a pity you're such a bitch.

i heard from rah today that this certain girl C bitches about me to others. others may be one person, or many.
C is my junior, she has never liked me.
she never told me explicitly, but you can tell when someone doesn't like you.
from the start. but i quite liked her, and quite disliked her.
but when i found out that she bitched about me, i was like, what?
flirt with guys. uhmmmm i forgot the others things she said about me.
when she came to TJ and we met, she was quite friendly! i actually thought that time has made her forget whatever bad traits i have that caused her to dislike me. oh but no, i guess it's just my face, huh.
if you don't know me, sorry i don't like you to bitch about me.
ugh some of cc girls and guys know how bitch i can be when speaking about people (so far, one) i don't like. today, you made it two.
it was fine when J said to me "you're a natural flirt" cause you know what, she didn't mean it in an offensive way, though it is a negative statement. she was honest about it, it was actually quite true, and she told it to my face, and guess what, she wasn't being bitchy and she actually knows me.
hello C, i really thought i liked you too, but now, i just have no opinion of you.
i shall put you out of my head.

oh i just realize, what a coincidence, both B and C's name are so similar, they're only a letter apart.
how i love you two.

hearts!