future

okay so i have been interested in chemistry (career scope) because i took an interest in chemistry (academic subject). it's so very different, yet.. i didn't have a clue about what a future in chemistry would be like. so i just.. like la!
and i dropped my subject.
so people ask me, what do i want to take?
"i don't know"
in order to avoid looking like a useless bum wannabe to those who asked, depending on whether i care about my image or not, i will throw in the nonsense about the chemistry and dropping part.

then comes along the relatives.

so persistent! seriously, after i told him for the.. 3rd? time this year that YES I AM IN MY SECOND YEAR
(how many times do you have to ask. okay honestly, it's very hard to remember. given. but WHY so desperate to start a conversation? like when i'm reading a magazine and obviously not interested to tell you about my horrible academics, ugh)
he asks, where do i want to go?
*spouts nonsense aforementioned*

**digressing, i am very excited to use the word AFOREMENTIONED cause it's DAMN FUNNY. honestly, i'm tingling in my tummy in excitement, AFOREMENTIONED! i used it in my essay just for the sake of it. might have used it wrongly!**

and so he goes on about how, actually, it was so boring and i was reading a magazine so i forgot.
rude, ain't i.
talked about how i should plan early, and try a few jobs interning, and my mummy was talking about how "easy" it was to intern at these what-cha-ma-call-it? who wants a job-hopping intern, really.
okay over, no more asking.
just that when he left,
"the next time we meet, should have a course in mind ah" he said it very nicely la, okay he's a very nice guy. very very nice guy.
but! ugh.

let me get over my heartbreak la.

digressing again, my aunt patted me on my back when i told her i'd work in the holidays after As and before school.
if i go to school again. i don't think mummy's considering overseas no matter how bad my results will be.

in my humble opinion, i feel that graduates should rest lor. i work, cause i will not be able to stand 8 months of boredom.
i mean, we've studied for (18 - 6 = 12) 12 years and will prolly study for another few, then work for the rest of our lives. except after retirement, but that's 23456776543 years away, and.. we may not even retire. work till we die.
isn't that what mm lee stated.

working people always lament about how they'd rather study than work. so now given the chance to study AND rest, why spend the rest time working?
you have the rest of your lives to suffer.
i think i'm not really being hypocritical cause though that's my opinion, i wanna work too.
but my work will be a different kind of work.
i had fun in my last working experience, (but the pay sucked) but because of the many students working there too, and the narrow duty scope of my job, it was.. fun. kinda.
plus, i had sooo many off days (up to 3 per week toward the last month) it was still very holiday-y. and that's why the pay sucked, cause i didn't work for so many days.

so i told mummy. 8 months holiday, 6 months work.
this is such a wordy post. wanted to post a hot picture but when i googled "hot" all sorts of disgusting pictures came up.
the decent one was a hot dog. which... failed to upload.

on a side note, NO MORE ONLINE SHOPPING FOR ME.