another clever word sets off an unsuspecting hurt

first time in my life i've been told that a teacher admitted that she overlooked marking a question and refused to mark it and give me my mark.
it's one mark, --> half a percentage point.
my teacher said first, it's cause i didn't check if she marked it.
shit la have tick there right! should have 2 la but how i know how the shit she marks? and if my answer wrong that's why she skip?
shit?
second, it won't make a difference to my grade.
i have half more percent happy cannot arh.
waaaa depressed man.

aniq and ahmed were talking about phds and university and flying high and not-dry and masters and what it's like to be smart.
okay not the last part.
but i was just there and like, mm, phd? mmm university?
i realize as people around me are flustered about university,
hel, sarah, jo, ..... ... ........
i am just.. aiming for a normal course in a normal local uni for a normal sad life with a normal job.
with low pay, and mummy told me to be happy.
with being frugal and spending carefully......................................
stupid rich friends and stupid huge appetite, how to live frugally?

okay not thinking about it la! aiyoh i kinda don't want to stop studying now.

it's like, after primary school, major decision is.. secondary school. choose wrong sec school still have chance to go good school what. after sec school, jc/poly.
aiyohhhhhhhh
decisions
decisions
decisions.

i have decided....
to take off my contacts now me eyes is dry.