$$$$ $$$ $$ $

spent lots of $$$$$ this year.
love going to fleas, really, but sometimes it's annoying when you realize you don't really like the thing, but you bought it cause it's cheap.... and it adds up! then it becomes a lot of $.
or this thing where you can't TRY IT ON, but you really like it, but it looks like crap on you.

i think i'm like one of the few who gets this lor, cause like, huge.. everything. by huge i mean big. by big i mean fat.

need.. to.. control.


speaking of need, i need to get the balls jo had to resign.
i wanna rest for a while before looking for a job again. I - KNOW - RIGHT, i've barely been in it for 2 months -.-
and retweeting what "lord_voldermort" said,
"you hate you job? there's a support group for that, it's called EVERYBODY, and they meet at the bar"
or something like that la.
i don't hate my job though.
my job currently is as easy as what a k1 kid could do, except i can do it like 10X faster. (i DID get a cheap thrill out of realizing that i CAN do it 10X faster than a k1 kid cause i was quite ): to also realize that a k1 kid could do what i'm doing)
my job, basically, is to cut and paste.

and i'm not even kidding!
i DO spend 8 hours a day cutting and pasting!

and at the end of the week, i'm exhausted.
know why?
cause i suck.

on a side note, results are in a week!

i've already told those i met today that i'm not going to go out, i'm going to go home straight to cry.
cause no matter what i get, i'll still be disappointed. ugh i really roll my eyes at those idiots who get like say, AAAB and complain about not getting straight As, and..... i'm an idiot like that myself, EXCEPT, nooo i've never gotten a single A or B?????

but it happened during results day for Os. i am disgusting, ugh.
so yeah, and this time is As, it's much harder, my results have consistently been a pile of *&^%^&, what can i still hope for my results?
still i can hope.
but as they say, the higher the hopes, the greater the disappointment.

i guess my disappointment that day will be............. very, very, very great.