miss inappropriate

i think i might be inappropriate at times.

oh an unrelated note, i guess i might have been delaying my quitting cause i really like the people there!
all the telemarketers, and carel and philip.
carel esp, without her, there's practically no life in the office.
the telemarketers.. it's quite awkward with them but i'll really miss em when i leave, esp lynn though i've only known her for one week!
there's always a part of me wanting to be more open, more friendly and more free in making friends, like... her?

and also cause i do brainless work, but i feel quite bad la cause i didn't reach the target set for me on friday and i wrote quite a long email to my superv trying to explain.
but in a rude summary, (oh i wish i could be rude but no. aiyah not to my superv la, he's quite understanding one), i basically meant "easy job doesn't mean fast job"
because the previous time i tried another method of doing the same thing, i screwed up quite a bit, and so i'm very scared and doing it very thoroughly now.

it doesn't matter if my superv understands la cause the higher ups will scold him for my poor performance and then he will try to tell me nicely. and then i'll feel guilty.
so nice for what aiyoh now i feel so bad giving trouble to him lor.

but my shit machine is going to spoilt soon so i can't give any more shit.

and where will i earn from?!?!?1 if i stay home all day CONFIRM spend spend lor.
okay okay i'll look for the very part time one.

ugh i have no blogs to read now everyone's so busy / don't update.
i feel inappropriate talking to the internet with no one as my audience,
yet inappropriate too because someone (you, whoever you are) is reading it too.