tissues issues

was online shopping - again, when i kept adding things to my cart, and then i felt so struck, like there are just some damn nice things i can't wear, ............... because of _(the usual complaints)_!
damn sad HAHA but i liked the thing so much i wanted to buy it and give it to someone so i could see what it looks like.
but i won't cause
1) i can't pay for it (it's through some online paypal / international transaction which i can't make. so basically i online shop for fun la, i can't buy anything, not even for myself. yes i get a kick out of it and depression when i realize i can't buy anything.)
2) will die of envy when the person wears it
3) plus be envious of the fact that she can wear it (cause you know, nice figure, skin.. YADAYADA this is awkward)
4) it's just awkward to give clothes as gifts. she may not like it.
i'm so bad but i just thought of my birthday presents.

okay i watched sucker punch w ash and gwen and sam yesterday

OLEY MAMA IT'S APRIL'S FIRST APPLICATIONS CLOSE TODAY WTFWTFWTF OKAY WAIT I FINISH THIS POST FIRST

and i was obsessed with babydoll cause she's damn gorgeous wtf.

hey look at me i'm gorgeous even while fighting for my life

then i googled her and found out it's emily browning!

i mean, they just look so different! i'm sorry but i think babydoll looks much cuter than the actress, but i do think the actress is gorgeous of course, in a more matured way la.

BUT THEY LOOK DAMN DIFFERENT.
and this is the girl who was asked to audition for bella swan.
i think kristen stewart is hot but........

then again in sucker punch, the only look babydoll gave was one of ultra vulnerability and damn sweet innocence, the i'm-going-to-cry-now look.
DAMN CUTE.
i'm not complaining.