bufuqi

this is one of the.. bad-er posts that i'll post la.
it's either jealousy or envy.
it's been told to me that jealousy is like, when you're up there, you're jealous of people rising.
envy is when you're down there, while people are up.

i know you get it.

so it boils back down to results and my competitive nature.
see, it's only with this person.
ya la, my left right centre north-east south-east whatever, those people have straight As, and i got rejected by NUS la, WHATEVER.
it's just........pardon my bragging but please, i am happy with my O level results. i wasn't, i didn't use to. indignant la, my two favourite subjects didn't get the grades i expected. chem was my BEST subject. by best i really meant that an A2 was never even thought about.
but i still got an A. i learnt to deceive myself HAHAHA i got A for chem. cause JC no A1 A2 what.

and here comes the exciting part.
i didn't like this certain person, and i know it's horrible, but i was so relieved that _ didn't do as well as me HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. and that we won't be going to the same school.

see, the thing is, my O levels made me very, very, very, VERY, VERY COMPLACENT. O levels what! we all didn't study as hard as we did for JC right, but still got decent results. so? i continued not studying.
good job eh kris.
admittedly i'm really fine with my As, it's just........ those AAAAAAAA people la.

and i found out...... that the person i don't like was. . . .. . . . accepted into Medicine.

M-E-D-I-C-I-N-E.

laugh at me, scorn me whatever, but it's what i wanted.
i gave it up in JC cause my results were at best an average C - D.
the results _ got should be straight core As, then other non-important subjects B.

besides the better results, it's just... why Medicine.
aiyah speaking of which,
Calvin i REALLY REALLY REALLY hope you get in!

yeah i'm not a very nice person.