moody

why is it called moody.
when im in a good moody, i'm moody.
bad moody, moody.
i'm not in a good mood now.
just came back from a long talk.
i realized that maybe i repress a little, just a little bit of the disappointment i face over the years.
came back, was not in the most excited mood, got reminded of absence, and things just went down.
ah i love being alone.
i love my family.
i miss my family.
i love being alone.

again, i don't like how life plays us.
we experience happiness, to experience sadness. we form relationships, to get crushed when it's broken.
i ever thought of secluding myself, not forming any relationship at all, slowly isolating myself.
but then would i be sad looking at people's happy relationships around me?
sides, i'm happy enough with how i am currently.
my.. i could say, people skills have picked up since secondary school.
but you know.. i'm just being emo kid now.

on a unrelated side note:
how are you?
do you miss me?
if you're happy always, does it mean you are happy without us?
if you miss us, does it mean you're occasionally sad?
how is it like there?
hey, i miss you.
can't wait to see you.
i know i've disappointed you.
but.
you disappointed me first.