issues, tissues

few things on my mind.

1) too big. too big, every-andimeanit-where i go, i get a "did you gain weight?" "did you grow fatter?" "wow uh, big"
not important that one.
but hello yes i get it ugh.

2) too distracted.
i am too much behind my work.
i am so going to die.

3) got a slight interest in pictures of the universe.
i'm not exactly interested in it, but i do like looking at them. so much so that... i spent (a mere) $4 on printing pictures of the orion nebula to paste in my room ^^

i like the second one the most cause it's the most colourful. so i printed SIX (6) parts of it to join into a big poster. turns out that 6 pieces of A3 paper still damn small.

4) no staying in sheares in year 2, absolutely.
was thinking of trying to apply for teaching award to pay for it, but ugh teaching.
and i think it might be harder for me now cause my results are going to suck, as compared to if i used my As to apply fo it. but then again, maybe then even cannot make it.

5) on the topic of school/geography, i asked my mum about the field trip next year which takes up 12MCs (or the equivalent of 3 modules), it's gonna cost quite a bit and i need more details, but i think there may a bit of competition to go cause it's such a good deal!
don't know what it entails, but it's like next year so the next point is more important.

6) field trip again!
this is unlike the previously said one, this is like.. a trip!
a 6 day trip to hanoi, vietnam.
i want to go so badly but it's gonna be so weird cause i don't know anyone there... ): probably gonna be a few seniors, and other geog majors.. whom i don't know cause my geog project members aren't geog majors..
and it will also mean i cannot work for that week, and who would hire me if i can only work for 2 weeks? and i don't wanna work on my birthday. AGAIN. sian.
if i don't work, how to pay for next sem?
AND how to pay for THIS field trip?

i seriously need to have a sugar daddy like now. or a really charitable person throwing wads and wads of cash at me, i wouldn't mind a mere 5 bundles of 100 notes each. each note being $100 of course.
am i too money minded, sigh.
see if i had money, i wouldn't even need to force myself to like geography, i might be able to buy my way through environmental studies, i might even be able to buy myself a nature reserve somewhere in iceland and live amongst the pandas and wild rhinos, us feeding each other grapes..