it's really happening III

results are out.
i can only thank God for giving me what i've gotten, thank my mother who is happy for me whatever i get, who encourages me when i feel down about my grades, who supports my Thailand and Fiji trip, and pays for it.
though i have only completed my 4th semester, after my 2nd sem a part of me died along with the dream of honours. compounded by the 3rd sem's results. so close yet so far, i was from 0.1 to 0.07 away from 3.5. i thought i was stupid, always never being able to reach my goals. never being able to score for the modules i liked. never anything.
this sem, i managed to do it with the help of few great project group mates as well as  a motivator in jin. probably gelin and gwen too, i don't know how i'd live at home without seeing them daily anymore.
4.375 (with s/u) semestral grade! utterly starstruck that i got both an A+ and a semestral grade beginning with a 4 at once. now if only that can be said for my CAP.
Fiji has become a reality for me at last, and i am so happy i couldn't contain it at first.
my wants are senseless, to be truthful.
i want to go Thailand.. just because it presents a new environment to me. i want to go Fiji.. just because same.
i want to enjoy myself and i want to cherish these great opportunities presented to me, i want to work hard and immerse myself in what these learning journeys have to offer.
i'm so so scared and so excited at the same time.
6 weeks of Thailand, 15 june- 28 july.
coming soon.