haunting

now is the time to consistently look forward and onward. crunch time. study time. focus on learning and doing assignments, on the present.
but i've been haunted by memories,
by dreams i forget the moment i wake while the sensations linger,
by "what ifs" and "should haves",
by "shouldn't haves" and "i wisheds".
i wish i remembered that dream that day, you opened the door for me.
i wish i remembered the dream just now, you were in it.