sometimes i wish you were so much more, 

sometimes i wish you were so much less.

you're so important to me, 

more than you'd ever imagine.

being less to me means i can lose you more easily,

being more to me means i can lose you more painfully....

either way i lose you in the end.

the eternal conundrum, 

is it better to have loved and lost,

than to never have loved at all?

cost-benefit analysis really doesn't work in this case,

how do you weigh how much happiness against how much hurt?

really really really really sleepy right now. 

if i just close my eyes, i'll drift off immediately, 

but i can't because 1) i have non-important work to do and 2) i stay up thinking of things like these.