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i wanted to apologize, or clarify, or just talk.
i had no balls to do so, cause i don't know how much she knew.
i wrote her an apology letter, but i never gave it to her.



















i just couldn't face her, sighs.















thanks girls for trying to make me feel better hahahahaha.
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today's climbs were fun aye!
great job giiiirls!
and guys too though i never watched any of you climb sorry!

"thou shalt not regret", and though it was quite, just a little, disappointing for the second route, thou did not regret!(:

i'm kinda glad finals are tmr, the wait killed my mood, sighs.

i kinda prefer onsight to flash. i was the second for my first route, so i didn't know where to feel nervous and like "okay, this is the crux. think, make careful moves, plan..."
i just did as i thought. i really don't know how i would have done if i saw people do that part before hand, i might fumble, probably.

for my second route, i saw many others before me. philip even came up to identify the crux and jac and i went through it together.
i was quite conscious of when i reached there, but still. hahaha. phailllllll. hahaha.
val the imba did it so easily! we were saying like,
she must have been thinking, "this is the crux? what? what crux? e-a-s-a-y-e."
i didn't see jac though, must have been a breeze.

aiyoh, diu lian in front of *inserts the name i've been squealing!* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.
eh no i'm kidding hahaha tsk!
i'm not so superficial hello?
teeheeeheeeeeee.

jac tmr we must hurry climb okay!
i really didn't realize what a bad habit it was to take up! aiyoh....
but climb fast where's the fun alrs):
sokay after comp we can manman climb.
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ash told me about jac asking her to rate.. _*narrows eyes*_ i feel so weird saying it explicitly.

jac, i told ash this.
not word for word, but along those lines.

"i feel so weird saying this, and i probably shouldn't, but i will anyways.

i think jac is beautiful.
you know how pretty and hot are different? so is beautiful. and jac is that."

ash agrees with me, 80%. hahaha idk where the 20% went.

your self esteem ah, jac. tsk.

100th percentile, not 0th.
c'mon, think positive.

ooh i hear justin bieber on radio.

like baby baby baby noooooooo...

yellow card tomorrow, c.a.n.n.o.t..w.a.i.t.
can you hear the draggy "voice", sighs.