it's you again

first dream about you in a long while. what is it? why? because it's the time of the year where memories of you stir more often than before.
i haven't forgotten.

i dreamt that you came to me in my friend's house. i brought you in from your car and asked my friend if you could come in. she said no, which surprised me greatly.
so i went out to spend time with you.
it felt so natural. like one of the things i have always been doing.
it felt so natural. like there was nothing out of the ordinary. like you have always been there.

of course, as in most of my dreams, everything changed and a new dream begun.

i woke up feeling very confused. disoriented. not from the second dream, but from the memory of you. it felt so real, as all dreams do. but this was so real, and i wanted it so much. i wanted you so much. but you've never been there.
i've always wondered what life would be like now if you were here. very different, definitely. my relationship with her wouldn't be as strong. strong relationships have its goods and bads, just look at us.

i miss you? do i? i miss the idea of you. i need you. we need you. i would say that we have forgiven you for leaving, but we can't because there is nothing to forgive. you have done us no wrong. you have done no wrong. of your own will. and no wrong was done against us by anything. except .. that.

how i long for just a moment again with you. i can envision how i will spend it.
no words, not at all. just you and i, holding each other. soon enough, i hope, i will see you again. and the rest will join us. and we will be happy again once more.
soon enough.