travelnot

title's supposed to be ironically a rhyme with travelouge, because guess what this is about? not a travelouge, exclamation mark.
curses.
at the age where my school mates and what not are going on exchanges, or travelling like pollution is free like that. i know i sound very bitter la, but- no buts i am la okay!
why am i confined to this stupid space in singapore, kena rejected heartlessly for SEP somemore. ask me to try next sem like HI I CAN'T OKAY?
stupid geog also give us only 2 sems to apply.
okay la CAP cui la BUT STILL.
so all you people on exchange who took my place (not took my place exactly, but because you exist you denied me my chance) **************************. very pretty string of snowflake curses.
jealous la okay okay can. i'm one of those sad ones who once past a certain age think i can no longer do anything with my life. certain age can mean like 21. i mean 21 is O-L-D. don't even wanna think past that. my liver fails at the thought of that.
was just thinking that my bro's going to be 23 next year. like moleyholey dude that's the age of a grandmother who reproduced at age 12 and her daughter 11. don't even pretend that isn't possible.
point is, i am old and will get older trying to aquire the funds to enable me to see things i want to see.
haiya give up la this thing here study geography has only been to the asia pacific region, never even been around all of singapore, want to go further.. forget it i'll just be content with exploring chinatown wow-ing at its amazing replication of china.
considering whether i should take the stupid Methods module next sem. inevitable. sianz. why is it compulsory WHY. no one likes it. is the dept trying to secure a job for the lecturer? very stressed about my results now. was almost certain i wouldn't fail anything - i didn't- but i still dropped my CAP. sian ttm! my whole life depends on this sem's (and last) pulling up cap. no shit when my senior said CAP can only drop. only geniuses with CAP 4.2 can defy logic and prove otherwise. same goes for the asshole who got CAP 5, first thing on my newsfeed on results day.
good for you la! very happy for you truly but like the contrast is horriddddddd.
i age so rapidly because i have too much to complain about life k brb going to sleep.
good way to end my year ah complain complain.