gift-giving

you know what i'm scared of? i'm scared i put in actual effort in putting together something for someone, like cutting the outlines of flowers off a paper for a border meticulously to piece together something,

only for the receiver to scrutinize it and joke "hey you missed a spot here" "you didn't cut this enough" "it's too angular".

it's really on my mind the whole time and i'm actually really dreading it. why? i never used to think of something like that.. until that once i put together something normal, and tried to make it extra special by adding something of my own, only for the receiver to point out something was missing. without a thank you.

well there was a thank you a day later. 

but you know, i didn't have to give it, and it's not like i expect immense gratitude or anything.

but it has entirely ruined the gift-giving experience for me. 

so thank you for that.