so on thursday we agreed to wear animal prints. i wore that, tied at my ribs, paired with a high waist shorts and stockings. in the top photo, and i also curled my hair and put on darker lipstick, in the bottom photo.

and i got more comments than usual about my dressing "wa so sexy" "wa going clubbing after this ah" "why dress up so nice". i mean, i must say it looks different than what i usually wear but it's just the stockings???

and what's wrong with wearing darker lipstick, i typically wear lipstick anyway. you can see that two others are also wearing lipstick in the bottom photo, and that someone else is revealing even more skin than me. what's so odd about what i'm wearing, and why why why is there a need to call me out on that?

when i got home, my mum was taken aback. if i went out and watched a movie, why was i wearing such thick make up, why was i wearing stockings yada yada.

i wasn't wearing thick make up, i was wearing a different coloured lipstick. 

why can't i wear this to school?

why?

why?

why is it so surprising that i wear this just for school and nothing else?

after 5 times of asking me and making comments about my dressing and about my face, i was like CANNOT IS IT? I LIKE I JUST LIKE TO I JUST FELT LIKE IT CANNOT IS IT?

"whoa why so defensive just asking only what", said she.

well if you DIDN'T MAKE SUCH A BIG DEAL OUT OF IT I WOULDN'T HAVE GOTTEN DEFENSIVE?!?!?!?!?!

fts i wear what i want to wear, make all the comments you want. yes, it affects me. all my life i tried to blend in. not that i'm trying to stand out now, i wear normal clothes all the time. but when i feel like it, i wear heavy eyeliner, i wear lipstick, i curl my hair, i wear a maxi dress, i wear a onesie, doesn't hurt anyone right???!?!?!?!

and today. 

"kristal your bangs look funny"

oh i'm sorry, i'll apply growing potion and makes my bangs grow out for you k?

FUCK LA KEEP YOUR FUCKING COMMENTS TO YOURSELF.

sorry, i meant, sure, comment. you can say i don't look good with bangs, that's constructive. but

KEEP YOUR FUCKING USELESS COMMENTS TO YOURSELF.